Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Fear

Success is not final,
failure is not fatal;
It is the courage to continue that counts
~Winston Churchill
The human condition called fear is important - it can stop you from doing something dangerously stupid.  Don't poke the sleeping bear!  Sometimes I find it paralysing.  I really want to try my hand at an art quilt and submit in an upcoming show.  Yet, here it is, late in the afternoon - 2 hours before I need to be dressed to go out, and I haven't touched it.  I always have to remind myself - what's the worse that can happen?  I use the seam ripper like when conquering the Mariner's Compass Star master class quilt block.  I learn something but it isn't good enough for me to brave enough to enter the show - this year.  My husband wasn't happy with is LSAT results - is he too disappointed or too afraid to retake the law school test.
I am reminded of when
 I attended the National Portfolio Day held at the Corcoran School of Art.  The building was full of the bravest young people around!  Opening up their work and their hearts to critics from art school from across the country.  That was a room where everyone one was in the same boat, the students were so supportive of these like minded people they have only just met in line.  I took a deep breath and was exhilarated!
OK art quilt - here I come and I am ready to cut the fabric!  Friday.  I've got to teach my nursery school class tomorrow!  And get the supper ready before going to happy hour with my husband.  I am feeling braver already!  Let's learn this!

My 15 minutes on small but depleting fears.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Visas

Visas

I have had two experience's with obtaining a visa's for my college students.  The first speaks volumes of this generation of kids - instant.  Snap chat, google maps, texting, etc., so much in a instant.  Picking out a suitcase in the basement for my oldest to take for her semester abroad in London, I brought up the fact that she needs to get a purse that can hold her passport and visa securly but with easy access when entering the country.  "I should really get on that visa now, shouldn't I ?"  She was leaving in two weeks.  Her school advisor didn't advise her to get on that sooner than later over summer break.   Scramble, scramble, expedite, got it done.  

Now on the second try for my youngest to go to school in Paris.  We were advised over the summer while visiting Parson's Paris that we should start to work on the visa as soon as possible as they can take a long time.  I needed to wait to see if she gained admittance into any of the London and Paris schools she was apply too first - that makes sense doesn't it?  Well, she got into the Paris College of Art and this is where she'd like to study.  
The French Consulate grants visa appointments but once a month.  We went today - jsut to come home without filing the visa request!  We have to wait until 90 days prior to her travel.  Oh, now that they've said it, it makes sense.   they are not going to post date a visa.  So she'd have a visa that would expire in April - we can't have that!  The bad news is that 90 days before she should ship out in August (no worries, I am going too!) she will be in the middle of exams.

My first "emergency" visa experience isn't the way I like to get things done.  I like to get the important, the you're not going until it's done important things done and done.  At least the paper work is done!

15 minutes of two steps forward, one step back

Saturday, March 21, 2015

High School Senior Attitude


High School Senior Attitude

Once my girls top college choice came in with a resounding yes - she has had a "up yours" kind of attitude towards everything.  With a smile on her face, but "what the f***k" on everything!  One of the top college fashion schools final due date was after her top choice came in - and she got her notice today that she was not accepted.  She didn't care!  While I am happy not have to mop her up off the floor, but her confession (not under duress) was upsetting.  
The final push on this particular schools application came when she was really busy she said, and it was true - but let's face it, she didn't try as hard since she got the school she wants.  Is it a grown up thing or a personality thing that one would work as hard as you can to see if you could win a spot at this top fashion school?
She dropped the ball, on purpose, and didn't care.  But she'll never know now.  Don't I know as a grown up that she'll wonder one day - what if I put my all in getting in there, would I have been accepted or rejected?

My 15 minutes as the grown up

Thursday, March 19, 2015

When a Child Needs Assistance - or It's OK to Need Help


When a Child Needs Assistance
or
It's OK to Need Help

One of my student's this year has beautiful eyes, but doesn't make eye contact.  He's is so happy to be at school, but completely on his own terms.  He is very sweet, although he has never spoken to me ans has  the language of a 1 year old or younger.  He is the most peaceful when he is not around a crowd of children.

See where I am going with this?  The mother doesn't, and that worries me because I want "A" to have the best childhood he can have.  In order for that to be accomplished the mother has to enlist some the services we have in our area - their goal is to make this now just 3 year "A" kindergarten ready by 5 years old.  No one wants to hear their child is different, but isn't it our goal as parents and teachers to give them everything they need to the best of our ability to turn the toddlers into wonderful thriving adults?  Sometimes this needs to accomplished by taking the road less traveled.  The mother believes once he gets into routines of our play based nursery school he will be "like everyone else".  It's the end of March, and no routine of our day has "A" accomplished.  It's a struggle and hysteria every day.  How can I help her understand that it's not wrong to seek assistance, it's not her fault?  When ignoring it is.  

My "sad my school isn't the right fit for "A" when there are wonderful programs out there that would help and enrich this child's life - but being ignored" 5 minutes day

*the photo is from a mural at The Parson's New School of Design in New York City - I don't recall the artist


Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Anais Nin

Throw you 
dreams into space 
like a kite,
and you do not
know what it 
will bring back,
a new life,
a new friend,
a new love,
a new country.
           - Anais Nin

I am thinking of using this quote from the poet/author Anais Nin for my daughter's 18th birthday card. She has been accepted into, and desperately wants to attend, The Paris Collage of Art.  It's appropriate as she wants to be a fashion designer, but IS IT WHAT I WANT?!  For her to study fashion design in Paris, is the BOMB but, honestly, can I let her go?  Of course, I have to.  I don't want to.  But at the end of the day, when a future employer asks where she studied fashion - does Chicago sound stronger than Paris?
My five minutes


Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Going back

I've started drawing and painting again!  I find myself settling down after a long day of work and after dinner drawing animals, balloons afloat in the sky, a little red canoe - it's mesmerizing!  Wine is relaxing too, and probably helps with the process, but this is the bomb.  I am so happy!  As the mother of four, my watercolor days have been on hold for a pretty long time.  Attending the Corcoran College of Art are some of my happiest memories - after my four children of course!  I feel one step closer to getting my children's books published if I can at least convie my ideas with a simple pen and ink idea.  Publisher's  discourage you to submit book ideas with your own drawings unless you are in industry professional.  I am no Jan Brett, but I would think an inkling of what I see for the story is a good idea.  And it feels so good to get back to the creative process of making a picture!  It kinda started with my husband needing to be a part of basketball's March madness.  I have no need for this.  So drawing and sketching during my show's is ideal.  Except for Scandal - that's a full attention full glass of wine arena!

That's my five minutes.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Some books I don't get



Some books I just don't get!

I am sure Gretchen Rubin is a wonderful person - but I don't get her "Happiness Project" that landed in my book group.  She lives in a great area in New York City - no rats in her building because the door man won't let them in.  She a seemly wonderful husband and a healthy happy little girl, She has a well respected job in the publishing business that she doesn't seem to moan about when she needs to hop out of bed to go to work.Why does she need to challenge herself to be happy?!  I fell like with all of those wonderful people and things going well in her life, if she needs to challenge herself to be happy - she needs therapy.  She needs to take a bus to some other neighborhoods in NYC and take a look at some peoples struggles.  She needs to take her girl to the pond and sail a toy boat in Central Park.  We all need to have more fun - it's called saying "Yes!" to that invitation to join an outing or a cocktail party.  Nobody offering invites?  Have the invites come from you.  Boom.

I put the book back.

That's my five minutes